My online diary

Woke up this morning feeling severe anxiety and panic attacks. Has just totally paralyzed me. I think it mostly has to do with me feeling unready to teach my makeup class which shouldn't be as I usually feel quite confident. Also partially, I feel nervous about if I will get this new job I'm hoping for. I really hate feeling this way as I feel so incapacitated and helpless. I must pray before I leave the house no matter how short. Today will go well.

Feeling downcast since I got the news the loan request was denied. Really had high hopes. Dunno where we are to start from now. I'm just hoping that a lesser amount can be granted. Cos right now... Can't just think of where else money can come from to complete that shop. Been lethargic all day. Been wanting to pray, but can't even get around it. So far so good with diet today.  Hope it stays like this forever. I'm tryna stay positive. In all things give thanks.

Finally getting around to this. Can finally purge myself of some of the raging thoughts plaguing me. Penning my thoughts down has always been highly therapeutic for me. If you happen to stumble across this blog - a few notes. This blog is basically a diary - an online diary so don't expect it to be organized or blog-like. I have not figured how to make a website private so this will do for now.You're welcome to interact with me, though I will always remain anonymous.