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Anxiety rising and battling procrastination

Once again my anxiety has reached peak levels and it's so paralysing. It's mind boggling how I've been actively seeking ways not to do what I need to do. I really don't know how I can overcome this fear of what I can't even lay my finger on. Sometimes I think it's my fear of failing, or what people might think of me not being good enough. But then I need to set out first before anything. I hate that I am stuck in this place solely by own making. I don't need wings to fly yet. I just want to be able to get my feet to walk first. If I fall down, I think I will be happier knowing I even tried. I need to get out of this rut. It's hell right here in my own mind. I feel like a prisoner to my inactions. God, you're the only one who truly understands this demon raging within. Please help me! There's so much to this life that I'm missing out on. I need this year not to end like the previous ones. I'm confident it's doable. Gosh! I'm al...